Goodbye, Mommy.

Dear Mommy,


I am sorry that I have to go. Believe me, it is for the best for both of us. Why do I have to go? Well, I just want to.


Thank you Mommy for giving me this opportunity to embark on this journey. I want to go to as many places as I can, I want to see the places that you've been to. I want to experience your winter, I want to smell the flowers that you once planted in your balcony, I want to be in the Holy City, to be in that acute area we call Jannah. I want to see the world that you've seen. Night dives, nudibrachs and dip in the hot springs too. I want to do all these and many many more.


Tell Daddy I am sorry that I have to go. It is his calm spirit that I have in me that always let me think of the best possibilities to take and to keep cool always. If I follow you in these aspects, Mommy, I'll go crazy. Crazy, but as charmingly-crazy as you have always been.


I left you with the sweet memories that we had together. 2 weeks seems short to others, but during those very days, each and every moment, every heartbeat, we were one, Mommy. Cherish our times we spent with Daddy. Promise me that you'll be there for him, always. Cry Mommy, cry as I know those are tears of love for me. I am still here for both of you. No one is taking me away.


I forgive you if you find happiness after I am not around. Be happy Mommy because I love to see you being happy. Remember to keep Daddy happy too. Never make him sad. He has always made us happy. Remember he cooked for us the NZ mussels alfredo pasta? Or the many massages after those horrible daily hormone injections for 18 days? Twin bun doughs he calls it. :P




You have always been happy with the things he gives to you. Docomodake, Wii Mario, Geo Cache and Little Big Planet to name a few. Have faith in what he introduces to you. Oh ya, do cook well for him. He loves food.


I really admire his never-ending patience with both of us.

Be free to be free, Mommy.


I try to meet you one day but before that day comes true, know that my journey is long and every where you go, I try to go there too. I will be there for you, somewhere. Don't be despair if my form is gone one day, I'll be there in the breeze, smells and taste.




Be strong for your own future, 
... for Daddy's unconditional love
... ... and for my little brothers and sisters.


All the blessings and love from me, Embryo 1 IVF Fresh Cycle 1.


Goodbye, Mommy. My love for you is unparalleled to any others that you can find.  *muah*!

I was conceived at Singapore KK Women's and Children's Hospital,  KK IVF Clinic on 27th May 2011 through embryo transfer at roughly 11:15 am by Dr Jerry Chan. I am the sole surviving embryo of 4. I am a Stage 4. On 12th June 2011, I left both my Mommy and Daddy after giving them a sign once they are back  from their maiden trip to Singapore Japanese Gardens.